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Self introspection...

My show that ended in february went surprisingly well. People liked my pictures and responded well to them. If this is the case, then why do I as though I've suffered some terrible failure? Is that what's deep inside of every artist? The need to expand, to change, to evolve, to manipulate the way other's see the world around them into a more palpable version of what I claim reality to be in order to feel as though I've done my job?

I'm not unhappy or angry. I'm just...left lacking, for loss of better words. I see the comprises that I made in trying to please others, but feel as though I haven't done enough to please myself artistically. I searching for a change in my work. That driving force that'll somehow allow someone to recognize my work in a room filled with other creative aspects and outlooks on things(whatever it is that they create), but something that's most importantly a clear reflection of "me".

How do I allow myself to find myself in what I do? That seems like such a silly question, but it's the very thing that I wake up and eventually fall asleep asking myself everyday. Why do I feel this distaste for what I'm creating currently? I keep feeling as though I could be doing more or that I should be working differently. I feel like my work should have more cause or more purpose, more direction, more and less discretion as far as subject matter all at the same time. I want to evolve, but I feel as though I've trapped myself in a box, appearing as just another one of those one trick ponies that people either love or begin to loathe after time.

How does one change while remaining the same? How do I keep doing what seems to work for me now while finding that much needed "umph" that I'm soo desperately searching for in my work without losing a grip on what personal iconography I've already built up in my work? I just repeated myself, didn't I? Lol.

I guess it's the age old question all over again. How do you follow in your hero's footsteps without becoming them?
  • Listening to: My new hitlist-the mix I made on itunes
  • Reading: some book my friend talon let me borrow
  • Watching: this webpage
  • Playing: I like that game skate...and skate 2...
  • Eating: ihop
  • Drinking: a gallon and a half of coffe

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:iconthesmokeking:
thesmokeking Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2011
hey, how's it going?
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:iconartizonline:
artizonline Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2011
I'm about 2.5 months away from graduation. Figured it was about time to start posting stuff to deviant art again. I'm trying to manage this and the 6 other sites i've got up as well. I'm working on changing all the names or the different monikers my sites run under to the same name, so as to create a better continuity between them (and because I keep forgetting site names, log in info and etc). lol.

how've you been man?
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Dhaundre Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2010
Thank you for the :+fav:! Appreciated! :thanks:
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Man-Of-Inspiration Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2010
Thanks a lot for the :+fav: appreciate it! :)
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Squid-Slinger Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2010
Just browsed through your gallery, and I must say, your style is sick!
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:iconvenus-in-our-blood:
venus-in-our-blood Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
Gorgeous gallery, love your style :D
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artizonline Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2009
Wow, thanks for spreading the love! It's christmas break now, so i'll have oodles of time to just sit in my basement and create new stuff/ work on older works that need to be finished.
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venus-in-our-blood Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
You're very welcome :D Well I can't wait to see more from you, yea I need to follow up on some old pieces too. I just think of new things and try to get those on paper and the others get left behind. I finish them eventually :p Like I said, just waiting to see what you post next :)
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LAS-T Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2009
WOAH!!!!
impressive gallery ^_^
dont stop the awesome work =D
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artisticpsycho87 Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2009
yoooo son!! [link] check out your feature haha
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