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Self introspection...
My show that ended in february went surprisingly well. People liked my pictures and responded well to them. If this is the case, then why do I as though I've suffered some terrible failure? Is that what's deep inside of every artist? The need to expand, to change, to evolve, to manipulate the way other's see the world around them into a more palpable version of what I claim reality to be in order to feel as though I've done my job?
I'm not unhappy or angry. I'm just...left lacking, for loss of better words. I see the comprises that I made in trying to please others, but feel as though I haven't done enough to please myself artistically. I searching for a change in my work. That driving force that'll somehow allow someone to recognize my work in a room filled with other creative aspects and outlooks on things(whatever it is that they create), but something that's most importantly a clear reflection of "me".
How do I allow myself to find myself in what I do? That seems like such a silly question, but it's the very thing that I wake up and eventually fall asleep asking myself everyday. Why do I feel this distaste for what I'm creating currently? I keep feeling as though I could be doing more or that I should be working differently. I feel like my work should have more cause or more purpose, more direction, more and less discretion as far as subject matter all at the same time. I want to evolve, but I feel as though I've trapped myself in a box, appearing as just another one of those one trick ponies that people either love or begin to loathe after time.
How does one change while remaining the same? How do I keep doing what seems to work for me now while finding that much needed "umph" that I'm soo desperately searching for in my work without losing a grip on what personal iconography I've already built up in my work? I just repeated myself, didn't I? Lol.
I guess it's the age old question all over again. How do you follow in your hero's footsteps without becoming them?
My show that ended in february went surprisingly well. People liked my pictures and responded well to them. If this is the case, then why do I as though I've suffered some terrible failure? Is that what's deep inside of every artist? The need to expand, to change, to evolve, to manipulate the way other's see the world around them into a more palpable version of what I claim reality to be in order to feel as though I've done my job?
I'm not unhappy or angry. I'm just...left lacking, for loss of better words. I see the comprises that I made in trying to please others, but feel as though I haven't done enough to please myself artistically. I searching for a change in my work. That driving force that'll somehow allow someone to recognize my work in a room filled with other creative aspects and outlooks on things(whatever it is that they create), but something that's most importantly a clear reflection of "me".
How do I allow myself to find myself in what I do? That seems like such a silly question, but it's the very thing that I wake up and eventually fall asleep asking myself everyday. Why do I feel this distaste for what I'm creating currently? I keep feeling as though I could be doing more or that I should be working differently. I feel like my work should have more cause or more purpose, more direction, more and less discretion as far as subject matter all at the same time. I want to evolve, but I feel as though I've trapped myself in a box, appearing as just another one of those one trick ponies that people either love or begin to loathe after time.
How does one change while remaining the same? How do I keep doing what seems to work for me now while finding that much needed "umph" that I'm soo desperately searching for in my work without losing a grip on what personal iconography I've already built up in my work? I just repeated myself, didn't I? Lol.
I guess it's the age old question all over again. How do you follow in your hero's footsteps without becoming them?
graffing...
so, my last two journals have been focused mainly on trying my hand at graffiti. I don't get how to do lettering, which is why most of my concern is on the characters and the potential messages that I can portray through these characters. I think it should be fun. To get something of my own blown up larger than life onto an outside obstacle where unknown spectators (fans or not) will have the chance to view it at any time. It's nice. Just the challenge of taking what I do and trying to transform it, contort it to fit another art form is exciting enough. Pushing boundaries and taking my art into different areas is where it's at.
I'm also con
lost sketcbook....
Things they come, things they go...
I lost a sketchbook this week that was actually only a few pages shy of completion. For me, that's something big, because I never seem to actually finish using the whole sketchbook. I use it for a while, get a large portion of it full...then I get bored and start something new once the desire to scribble ensnares my senses at an unmentioned later time.
I'm trying to be really cool, calm and content with things...but the truth is, I'm mad as all heck. There were a few drawings in there that I was actually in the process of turning into much larger projects that were going to become a permanent part of my n
devestation
devestation.....I was only about 10 pages away from filling up my most recent sketchbook.......and now it's nowwhere to be found. Goind on 4 days now, no clue as to where it could be. We've checked everywhere. I think it got put on the top of the car and we drove off....if that's true....it's worthless because it's been raining non stop for the last four days....
at work..
Don't speak out, embrace the silence and only take what they give you or else.....
you might start thinking freely...and...
you just might say something worth while...
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Just sayin (over a year late of course)
I find a break doesn't hurt here and there. You can come back and something new may work itself into your art and you won't even notice it at first.
That is probably the easiest one to try.
A different approach would be trying to mimic other peoples style or use mediums you haven't tried prior and see what happens. You may understand what makes your work, yours and appreciate it more. Or at least have a better grasp on what you feel you need to change in your work afterwords.
I don't think you will ever be completely satisfied with what you are doing to be honest though. If you ever fully were, you'd have no need to create anymore as your journey would be over. So even though you may feel really stagnant, you are still on a path of improvement and discovery that will eventually lead to you feeling less like you did at the time of your writing.
Lastly, you are one of the most talented painters I know man, and one of the only people I actually consider an "artist". You just gotta keep your chin up and keep creating, because I know you would probably go crazy if you weren't doing something to let all those ideas out.
That all being said.
How you been man? It's been forever since we talked.
I find a break doesn't hurt here and there. You can come back and something new may work itself into your art and you won't even notice it at first.
That is probably the easiest one to try.
A different approach would be trying to mimic other peoples style or use mediums you haven't tried prior and see what happens. You may understand what makes your work, yours and appreciate it more. Or at least have a better grasp on what you feel you need to change in your work afterwords.
I don't think you will ever be completely satisfied with what you are doing to be honest though. If you ever fully were, you'd have no need to create anymore as your journey would be over. So even though you may feel really stagnant, you are still on a path of improvement and discovery that will eventually lead to you feeling less like you did at the time of your writing.
Lastly, you are one of the most talented painters I know man, and one of the only people I actually consider an "artist". You just gotta keep your chin up and keep creating, because I know you would probably go crazy if you weren't doing something to let all those ideas out.
That all being said.
How you been man? It's been forever since we talked.